Jesus, I’m so happy this month is finally over. I have been running on fumes since Thanksgiving. My novel had taken the back burner to my job, which feeds my feelings of inadequacy, family obligations and the anniversary of my grandmother’s death. All a potent mixture that drags me down into my own personal tar pit. But now that the holiday season is winding down, and I had a few days to myself, I can breath easy again.
Now, I’m not the type of person who makes new years resolutions. I don’t really see the need in trying to commit to something new just because the year started over. I try to work on myself throughout the year. With that being said, the one goal that I made for myself this year (yes I know I just said I didn’t do these things) is to find more balance in my life. I’m one of those people to always bites off more that they can chew. I love trying new things and my house is often littered with half finished projects that often get pushed to the side when my life becomes crazy. Unfortunately, my job (special education teacher) means that my life will always be crazy. I need to find some semblance of balance with all the loves in my life.
On that note, I wish you all a Happy New Year! Here’s hoping it will be better than the last.
This year, I was able to obtain a new teaching position at the school where I already worked at as a teacher assistant. Nearing the end of the first 9 wks, I finally feel comfortable. The first three weeks felt like pure hell and I didn’t feel like a teacher at all. But now, I’ve found my groove and things have started to settle down. With that being said, many of my projects, including my novel have had to take a seat on the back burner because I needed to focus completely on figuring out just how in the world was I going to work this teaching gig. But I think I have it mostly figured out so it’s time to get back at it.
I wish I could share the pictures of my kids with you guys, they are something else. But I have to respect their privacy. However, they are the cutest little demons I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. ha ha
A last week, I finished the finally bits of writing for my latest novel Time of Prophecy. Since completion, I’ve had to set up my classroom, prepare for open house, and been in one beginning of the year meeting after another. With everything being as crazy as it is, my novel as sat gathering dust. At first I was buried under crippling guilt until I realized that I finished writing ahead of schedule. I can take a week off to get my life back in order and still be able to meet my dead lines.
But come September 4th, I have to carve out some time to do my final edit so I can send the manuscript off to the editor on time. Wish me luck!
Like many writers, I have been writing for a good chunk of my life. And I can promise you that none, I repeat, none of my early works will ever see the light of day…ever. But those early samples hold a special place in my heart because they show just how far I’ve come as a writer and I’m not done learning how to be the best writer I can be. During a particularly bad bout of writer’s block I headed to my local book store. I happened across a small but helpful section that had nothing but books about being a better writer. I picked up a couple and bought them. So far I’ve only started going through one, but already I’m finding it helpful.
Here are the books if anyone is interested.
I also stumbled across a rather interesting site called skill share. I haven’t actually signed up for any classes yet (my life is too hectic right now) but they look like they have a number of classes that I want to get in on. Stuff like creative writing, marketing, editing, etc.
So here’s the question I pose to my fellow writers out there, have you guys found any interesting sights or tools that help you master your trade? Looking forward to learning about them.
Oh dear lord, what a crazy two weeks. I haven’t accomplished anything and yet so much has happened to me.
I’m written up to the climax of my newest novel Time of Prophecy. I decided to take a step back and visually story board it. You see when I write it tends to play out like a movie in my head. If I’m coming up on a complex or difficult scene, I just let it run in my head and gleam information that way. It helps a little. Any who, while I was taking time out for that, the shit hit the proverbial fan…but in a good way.
As many of you may remember, I work as a Teacher’s Assistant in special needs and was working on getting my teaching license. At the end of the last school year I decided that I was going to stay in special needs. I love those kids and I love what I do. So I put out my resume. When I didn’t hear anything back I started to feel discouraged, but then I got a call from my principal. The teacher in the other classroom had left and he since he knew I was looking for a teaching position he offered me hers. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! I didn’t want to leave the school because I love everyone there and I have an awesome Special needs team. So I have all that craziness going on while I learn about the children I’m responsible for and setting my my classroom.
On top of that, I’m currently recovering from having some cysts removed from my ovaries to see if that will help me and my husband conceive. The incisions still bleed a little when I move around a lot and I’m in the itching phase of healing.
Then, on top of everything else, my husband and I are looking to purchase our first home. The market is tough and it’s proving difficult to find homes in the area we want.
It was only today that I realized that I haven’t even thought of my novel, writing, or anything else for a while now. I have to finish writing before school starts and still go through the final editing stage. I edit as I go.
If you haven’t seen Rise of the Guardians, you should. Not only is it a cute animated movie about childhood, it has some pretty good messages. One of the themes revolves around Jack Frost as he tries to figure out what his center is, the reason why the moon choose him to become a Guardian. Most people spend their entire lives looking for the one thing that makes them who they are. There are a lot of things that make up a person but their center is what pulls all others towards it.
For me, I believe it’s writing. When I’m in front of my computer or scrawling ideas down in my ratty notebook, I feel the surest in my skin. Writing is creating. Writing is teaching. Writing is giving comfort to those who need it. I can’t imagine not doing it and I can’t live without it.