I have never gotten this far with a story of my own, ever. I finally gotten through my writer’s block and am pretty close to finishing the eighth chapter of my story. I’m so excited and terrified at the same time. Pretty soon I will have to worry about trying to get my book out there to the masses. I’ve written plenty of fan fiction but this is something that has completely come from me. The characters, the plot, the story all come from me. I now understand why some people write for years without showing anyone their writings. It’s terrifying.
I’ve been working on this story for almost two years now. I’ve come farther than I ever have before and I actually have to worry about sales and getting my name out there. It’s almost enough to make me want to stop, almost. I know that not many authors are willing to admit this but I believe that I should. I never spared any thought to what the authors of my favorite novels went through and now that I’m in their shoes, I respect them more.
It takes a lot to put a novel out there. I’m not talking about worrying about how many book you sell; I’m talking about the effort that goes into creating a novel. The hours of work. The uncertainty. The pain and the joy. These books are definitely our children. We put so much of ourselves into them that authors become overly protective of our stories. Don’t get me wrong, I want to share my stories with the world…but I’m not sure I can take it. The only thing I can do is hope that there are a few people out there who will love reading my story as much a I loved writing it. I know authors are supposed to be these confident creatures that do not care what the world thinks about them, but I don’t think this is true.
Maybe I’m just freaking out. I mean who wouldn’t. The only thing that I know is that I’m so excited that I can barely contain myself!